A Good Day

Today was a good day. B has now weaned off her ventilator and has been hanging steady for a couple of days, breathing with just a little assistance. We’re thrilled about that.


C had a good day too. After her lung issue, she had minor surgery, and was on morphine with a(nother!) tube coming out of her. As of today she is back off the ventilator, and the tube has been removed.

The bad news I referred to yesterday, was that we learned that she has had a significant brain bleed. When three neonatologists, including the head of the whole centre come to find you, you know it’s not good news. We don’t know when exactly, or why, or how, although in the 24 hours since we learned I have puzzled over all those questions over and over. It seems so horribly unfair, especially as this condition is extraordinarily rare in babies this far along. It’s not something we can see on observing her, nor will we understand what it means for months and months. She is an active and beautiful baby.

Understandably, this is pretty upsetting, especially with a million post-partum hormones flowing through me, but we are going to live in the moment and our hopes and goals are shifting but are ultimately the same. I remember reading a book once with a line about how a mother’s love goes where it is needed the most, and I’ve never felt that more than now.


And just for the record books – Dad’s first diaper change!


6 thoughts on “A Good Day”

  1. Thanks for the update. They will both keep getting bigger and stronger. Wishing you all the best.

  2. We’re thinking of you all, Hilary and Julian and all of your babies… our heart is with yours. xo Thanks for the updates!

  3. Thinking of you Hilary and your beautiful little girls. Will be checking in often, love to see the photos of all the kiddies… Stay strong! Amazing…mom of 4 🙂

  4. Oh Hilary! These pics made me tear up! Your fierce mom love has taken over and your heart will continue to walk out of your body even more now. I’m so sorry to hear about Cora’s brain bleed. That is scary news indeed and so stressful on top of everything else you’re coping with. I’m sending my love to you, both babies and your older babies at home! Good job J on the diaper change! 😉

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